Wednesday, August 19, 2009

This post has no title and is rated higher than PG13

Today is a day that sucks. I see it coming and I dread it. I hate today. Today can get on a train and get the **** out.



It's been 5 years and I still hate you.

And I still love you.

Asshole.

Today sucks.

My Immortal - Evanescence

I'M SO TIRED OF BEING HERE
SUPPRESSED BY ALL MY CHILDISH FEARS
AND IF YOU HAVE TO LEAVE
I WISH THAT YOU WOULD JUST LEAVE
CAUSE YOUR PRESSENCE STILL LINGERS HERE
AND IT WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

(CHORUS)
THESE WOUNDS WON'T SEEM HEAL
THIS PAIN IS JUST TOO REAL
THERE'S JUST TO MUCH THAT TIME CANNOT ERASE
WHEN YOU CRIED
I'D WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS
WHEN YOU’D SCREAM
I'D FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOUR FEARS
AND I HELD YOUR HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS
AND YOU STILL HAVE ALL OF ME

YOU USED TO CAPIVATE ME BY YOUR RESONATING LIGHT
NOW I'M BOUND BY THE LIFE YOU LEFT BEHIND
YOUR FACE IT HAUNTS, MY ONCE PLEASENT DREAMS
YOUR VOICE HAS CHASED AWAY ALL THE SANITY IN ME

(CHORUS)

I TRIED SO HARD TO TELL MYSELF
THAT YOU’RE GONE
BUT THOUGH YOU’RE STILL WITH ME
I'VE BEEN ALONE
I'M ALONE

WHEN YOU CRIED
I'D WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS
WHEN YOU’D SCREAM
I'D FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOUR FEARS
AND I HELD YOUR HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS
AND YOU STILL HAVE
ALL OF ME

14 comments:

♥Amber Filkins♥ said...

You could have titled it, "The post that puts the profane in my S&P" or something more clever than that. I dunno. Call it what it is, sucky.

I love that song. It's so tragic. Yet, so captivating. It's like a train wreck. But I love it.

Soooooooo, what's been five years? I'm a little confused on that one. But whatever it is, you've convinced me that we should hate it.

Hope tomorrow is better!

webberpa said...

I did not get the video, most of the time my filter does not let this stuff through. 5 Years? I cannot even recall that far back, but I did have this mad crush on this co-worker, and I think she wanted me, too, but we didnt do it, thank God...that was about 5 years ago, funny how things change, and how things that were once so important are no longer such. What is important is God, love, family and friends. And treating yourself right.

Arlene said...

I believe I know what you mean. I'm sorry. :( Remember, forgiveness is the gift you give yourself.

Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

I missed out, but will tell you I am thinking of you!

TracyR said...

Many hugs to you and yours. :( Bites, just bites.

Nikki B. said...

hmmm...so sorry heidi, that it's one of those days!

those kinda days, as hard as they suck and as train ridin' as you'd like them to be...make you, you...

and i think you're pretty effin' cool!

Lauren said...

I'm so sorry! It's the people that we love the most that hurt and disappoint us the most. I won't tell you to forgive because I don't know (and don't want to know) what the asshole did but just know that I am praying for you today and tomorrow will be better!

Emily said...

I'm so sorry you're having such a crappy day. I don't know what happened 5 years ago, but obviously it sucked hard. Praying for you today...

purplemoose said...

I've always thought that was a cool song, but didn't know what it was saying. I still don't get it. But I'm sorry that you are having a bad day (bad five years?) I wish I could make it better. OK I'm gonna go get a kleenex now. (its those darned hormones again!!)

Ang said...

I hope you are okay!! Tomorrow is a brand new day!!

CntryMomma said...

I get it. (I think.)

Mimi said...

Whatever "it" is I hope that the ugliness and pain will fade a little more every day.

Robin said...

hey you... i love ya. hang in there. Robin

MoodyMama (a.k.a. Heidi) said...

I have no idea what happened 5 years ago but I LOVE that song. Hang in there!